A woman in a flowing rust-orange dress walks alone on a sunlit beach at golden hour, symbolising the beginning of a spiritual awakening and the journey back to herself.

Let me just say this upfront, so we’re clear:
Yes, the first few journal entries in this awakening pathway start with a guy.
And no, this is not a dating blog.
But oh, how it needed to start there.

Because the truth is, I’d been single for most of my adult life—by choice. After falling pregnant with my son, I devoted myself to motherhood. I didn’t want revolving doors of men or half-hearted connections. I wanted to protect my peace. I wanted to do things differently. And I did.

But then one day, out of nowhere, I started dating again.

His name was Frances.

Now before you get any ideas about candlelit dinners or whirlwind romance—don’t. This isn’t a love story. This is the part where I realise, with horrifying clarity, that after all these years, I was still calling in the same kind of man.

Emotionally unavailable. Spiritually asleep.
Charismatic, yes. But deeply misaligned with who I was becoming.

And that was the moment it all started to unravel.

Not because of him—he was just the match.
But because of what his arrival exposed in me. The patterns. The wounds. The unhealed narratives I didn’t even know I was carrying. It wasn’t about him at all. It was about me. It was about identity.

It was about the voice I had never fully used.
The power I’d kept on a low simmer.
The woman I was about to remember.

What followed wasn’t just a breakup—it was a breakthrough. It was a soul excavation. A prophetic quickening. A full-blown Holy Spirit ambush.
And it started with a man.

So if you’re new to this Awakening Pathway, and you’re reading the first entry thinking:

“What does this have to do with prophetic calling?”
Keep reading.

If you find yourself whispering:

“Is this really the start of a spiritual journey?”
Yes. It is.

Because this is how the Spirit works—He comes for us through the ordinary, through the places we least expect. Through a broken pattern. Through an aching question. Through the thing that cracks the surface and lets Him in.

This is the start of my awakening. And it’s not polished. It’s not pretty. But it is real. And it leads somewhere holy.

So welcome.
This isn’t just a blog.
It’s the raw journal of a woman who didn’t know she was about to be awakened.
And maybe, just maybe, it will awaken something in you too.

“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
— Psalm 34:18 (NIV)

Let’s walk it out, together.

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Victoria Player is an emerging prophetic voice, spiritual disruptor, and single mother based in the UK. She is the founder of Daughter of Thunder—a raw, Spirit-led platform for awakening women and equipping the remnant. After walking through decades of emotional abuse, loss, and dismantling, Victoria now shares her unfiltered journey of healing, calling, and consecration. Through her writing, she calls the hidden ones out of silence and into bold, holy purpose.

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